Not in the mood

Ever so slightly – Not in the mood on soundcloud
Im not in the mood is a song about that feeling of wanting to ruin yourself. About this wish to be selfdestructive, to not have to deal with your to-do-list in your successful life. Like as if one is envying those who cant handle their alcohol or drugs, cus they have peoples sympathy in their misery. You though, you will just upset people if you dont do what you are supposed to.

Im not in the mood

Speaking from my heart with honesty
Im starting everyday with half a bottle of whiskey
Cus Im struggling hard to figure out the key
to happiness in this life I lead
Dwell in my dreams and heavy sleep
wake up tomorrow and simply repeat
Cus Im not in the mood for food, no
I dont want anything
Just pour me your biggest glass of gin
Making me feel better than good within
Dont wanna get up and go, no
Just wanna stay home smoke some tobacco (CHANGED after recording: Just want to stay home and smoke tobacco)
have myself few glasses of wine
No matter it be red or white
I think they’re both worth my health money and time
Then Ill hit my homemade bong
I know you think I’m doing something awfully wrong
I don’t care, Ill rather have you gone
Cus I’m not in the mood for you, no
Making everybody around you feel blue
Dont wanna see your stupid grin
Self righteous anti everything
Making me feel worse than bad within
ill fix that, with a glass of gin
Then Ill hit my homemade bong
I know you think I’m doing something awfully wrong
I don’t care, Ill rather have you gone

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