Elastic Heart

Heart is another word for center, in my own sentiment atleast.

Red wine and frozen blue

Cold to the bone winter 2013, lips are purple as a result of red wine and frozen blue. Flicking cigarette after cigarette, nodding hello to the faces that keeps changing out on the terrace in the middle of Beijing. Stubborn as mule, I don’t want to go inside. No matter how great of a party they are throwing downstairs where its warm and cozy, we aint moving. Wearing layers and layers of clothing, sitting superclose together on this old couch is a great way to spend this particular evening. Its not too cold yet to sit outside, just really freezing. We talk about music, boys and favorite liqor. She is a rum gal, I am more of a light beer type myself, slowly moving over to loving red wine. My newly found friend, Mati, born and raised on a french Island in the Indian ocean that has about 11 shark attacks a year, was by far the coolest young woman I have ever met. Beautifully dressed, polite and still genuine. We had a beautiful a 3 hour long conversation on the frozen balcony when everybody else was downstairs enjoying their warm and comfortable bodies. I loved it. We didn’t see each other a lot afterwards, we never planned to go out together, but were always thrilled to bump into each other. She was one of those people you know. That just came and went. Now she is out of the country and studying hard. I really treasure that drunken cold sit down.

We talked about music and she mentioned Sia, showed me a tattoo that sad “Breath me“. I ofc went on and on about Amy Winehouse.. I got myself home and youtubed Sia. Never fell for it. I understood it was cool, but it never caught me like Amy Jade did.

Now, a year later, Chandelier and Elastic Heart are out. I am in love.

The dance

Watching this performance on SNL, I found myself with watery eyes by the end. For me, this song is about a relationship between a young girl and adult woman, who might be her mother, or another caring figure in her life. This adult forgets sometimes that she is child and treats her as an adult, by taking the girl with her on her own adult life, rather than taking her to the playground. Instead she dances her own dance and the girl follows. Then it goes wrong, because it becomes obvious that the girl isnt like herself. The girl doesnt like the same things and needs a different kind of attention. The woman doesnt quite know how to handle it so she just tries to make her happy, and laugh. Illustrated in the dance by tickling. The girl doesnt respond as well to that as the woman would have hoped, instead the girl feels insulted and annoyed. A fight breaks out. The woman feels so bad and even shame, so she tries to make it better. She tries to explain that she just wanted to make her happy. But the girl is angry and shouting, getting all of her frustration out. The woman had no idea she had been so ignorant towards the little girls needs, and she realizes how selfish she has been. She also feels empty now that she doesnt have the girls unconditional love anymore, so she breaks down and just cries. Everything gets to her now. How she has been wrong all this time and this specific fight that pulled the sprint on a ticking bomb. She is powerless and she has failed a rolemodel, with no clue of what to do. She loves this girl so much that she cant bare the feeling of not giving her everything she needs. The girl notices how devastated the woman is, and realizes that she has never meant to harm her. There is no need to be angry. She shall forgive one who loves her so much. The girl feels the same way as the woman did. The difference is she wasn’t powerless, she could act, so she did. She went over there and showed her that she still wants to be her little girl.

“Elastic Heart”
(feat. The Weeknd & Diplo)

And another one bites the dust
Oh why can I not conquer love?
And I might have thought that we were one
Wanted to fight this war without weapons

And I wanted, and I wanted it bad
But there were so many red flags
Now another one bites the dust
Yeah, let’s be clear, I’ll trust no one

You did not break me
I’m still fighting for peace

Well, I’ve got thick skin and an elastic heart,
But your blade it might be too sharp
I’m like a rubber band until you pull too hard,
I may snap and I move fast
But you won’t see me fall apart
‘Cause I’ve got an elastic heart

I’ve got an elastic heart
Yeah, I’ve got an elastic heart

And I will stay up through the night
Let’s be clear, won’t close my eyes
And I know that I can survive
I’ll walk through fire to save my life

And I want it, I want my life so bad
I’m doing everything I can
Then another one bites the dust
It’s hard to lose a chosen one

You did not break me
(You did not break me, no)
I’m still fighting for peace

Well, I’ve got thick skin and an elastic heart,
But your blade it might be too sharp
I’m like a rubber band until you pull too hard,
I may snap and I move fast
But you won’t see me fall apart
‘Cause I’ve got an elastic heart
[3x]

I’ve got an elastic heart

 


Sia has been written songs for other artists aswell, worth mentioning is especially Diamonds by Rihanna, which is a song I have danced a lot to in my apartment. Also these babies.